A better Day

I went to see my RE today for a checkup.  Things are looking like they should.  I should ovulate within 5 days if my body doesn't decide to be a big ole faker.  She said that my uterine lining looked better!  WOOT for thicker uterine linings....  better for an embryo to implant in!  We discussed how I did on the 200 mg. of Clomid.  It was rough; I won't even lie.  BUT, I told her if it works, I'll take it as many times as I need to for a Little Leonard!  He or she will be so worth all the migraines, hot flashes, lack of sleep, and hurting.  SOOOOO worth it. 

I enjoyed spending time with Mama again today.  It's extremely rare that I see her 2 times within 6 days.  I didn't want her to go today.  I actually got all weepy about it.  Thank you hormones.  Anyway, Mama is a fantastic spaz, but I've turned into her.... I'm just the "whitie" version. HA!

Driver's Ed starts in 3 DAYS!  Holy mackerel!  I can't wait to get behind the wheel of my car again.  I could be a licensed driver in as little as 1 month folks!  WOOOOOOOOO HOOOOOOOOOOOO!  Welcome freedom!!!!!!!!

We've been decluttering A LOT to make our house more sellable.  It's kind of nice to not have crap everywhere too!  I sent a ton of stuff with Mama to drop off at the resale shop.  I hope we make some big bucks!  That'll definitely help to save for IVF!  Woot!

I have had so much fun with my kids this week for red ribbon week!  I think I get more into it than they do.  Any reason to dress up is WAY cool!  Tomorrow is pajama day!  I'm SO excited!!!!!!!!!!!  I'm goin' all out with the robe and house shoes baby! 

Alrighty, I'm off to get ready for choir! 

Cilla

Changes

We heard back from The Cade Foundation that out of the 121 families who applied for an IVF grant, we weren't chosen.  No reason why was included, but I wish I knew why.  Oh well.  There are 2 other organizations to apply for grants.  One becomes available in December and the other in May.  We'll be applying for those as well if we're not pregnant yet.  It is so hard to not walk around like a zombie some days...  It's just really, really hard.

We've been discussing selling our house and moving into a smaller house for about a year.  We feel led to take that step.   We're hoping that this house won't be on the market as long as our first house was.  We will now be able to move outside the city (but not too far) since I'll be able to drive.  This will be an exciting yet stressful time for us.  With God as our guide, we'll make it! :)

I start driver's ed. in 6 days.  I'm nervous.  Not because of the newness, but because of my age and disability.  I hope I don't get picked on and such.  I dealt with that in high school and even some in college.  I just pray that the others in my class are receptive to a 27 year old chick being in there.

Carter is growing so fast!  We haven't seen him as much lately, but I knew he remembered me when I pick him up and he started head butting me.  He started this with me this past Easter, and he's done it with me ever since.  He head butts me and busts out laughing!  I think he likes it when I say OOOOWWWW!  Little cutie batootie.

I have a precious husband.  I'm so blessed to have him as my better half.

I need to go plan my outfits for Red Ribbon Week :) 

Have a great week ya'll!

Cilla

Yep

Tonight I start my next round of fertility drug.  It's the highest dosage of Clomid my RE prescribes.  If this round doesn't work, I can try it for 10 days instead of 5.  Only 5% of women respond to this dosage, but we're praying I'm in that 5%!  Dr. Scotchie told us that I would experience side effects from this dosage.  Some women have it rough on the lower dosages, but my body has tolerated the medicine well side effect wise.  I did have a solid headache for 2 days, and it was no fun.  I honestly don't care to go through some pain and discomfort for a positive outcome.  Thank you so much for the prayers you all are lifting up so that we can grow our family.  We've been learning in S.S. to pray with boldness, and unless God tells me differently I'm praying bolding for a baby.  I have a peace that God will give us a child, but the how and when are totally in His court.  :) 

I'll be taking 200 mgs. (4 pills) for 5 days.

I didn't go to church tonight due to a rough cycle :(  Why did Eve have to eat that apple?  Anywho, my precious husband just got back from a milk run, and he brought me a java something something with mint from Sonic.  I love him! 

I love fall.  I enjoy decorating for the holidays to come and enjoying the nice weather.  The colors are amazing also!  Plus the sun's ray aren't so evil!  Woot!  I do belive fall is my favorite season.  I enjoy the cooler / cold weather.  I'm odd, but my theory is it's easier to cover up than to strip down....  or at least prettier. 

Hope ya'll have a great week!

Cilla

Bullet Update

• We're on Fall Break, and I don't have to go back to school until Tuesday.  I brought my stuff home to get the details on my lesson plans and upload my grades.  Dude, the first 9 weeks of school is over.  I have 3 left with my babies....  sigh.....
• The revival at church this week has been fantastic.  I needed every bit of it.  Last night my name should have been in the title of the sermon.  It was about how Mary M. got so worked up crying at the tomb when Jesus had risen.  The preacher talked about how she had it all figured out that his body was stolen and she was gonna go get his body HERSELF that she didn't even realize Jesus talking to her in the garden.  He compared it to us having burdens and "figuring" out our future with worries and the what ifs.  That is so me..... I could go on and on and on about this....  God is great, and I'm SO thankful that He speaks in so many different outlets.  It was also said last night when we're our lowest and feel God is the farthest away, He is the closest.  So Hold me Jesus.  I need You big time right now in my lowness.
• Charlie's wisdom teeth are both going to be removed.  He's doing much better, but he is still having some pain.  I won't be cooking crunchy foods anytime soon.  His consult with the oral surgeon isn't until the 20th.  Thankfully the antibiotics and pain meds have made it much more manageable, and he can actually open his mouth!
• I practiced driving up our street yesterday and getting into the garage.  I was scared to not hit the CR-V in the driveway and not hit the side of the house.  I was surprised at how easy it was!
• I rode to church with a sweet couple from church on Monday and Tuesday.  They were generous to come and get me for revival!  I enjoyed getting to know them :).
• Since Dolly's been gone, I fill my time with cleaning.... a lot of cleaning.... and jogging.... 
• The reason I didn't ovulate this time isn't my fault.  I thought it was because I had eaten carberific food at homecoming, but Dr. Scotchie assured me it was part of my PCOS.  Our chances seem to be getting slimmer and slimmer without IVF.  IVF seems like it is impossible due to the cost....  We know that God holds our future and that He will grant us the desires of our hearts in His due time with how He sees fit.  I'm okay with this.  I'd much rather He have control of my future than me.  I'll just mess it up if I hold the reins....  We know that this journey is hard and we will continue on the emotional roller coaster, but God rides with us holding our hands on the highs and the lows.  There is no point in being mad.  He is growing us so much in this journey and for that I'm thankful.
• Couponing saves SO much money!  I've brought a lot of things home that have been FREE with coupons this past week.  Charlie has been amazed too.  To me it's super exciting and like a game!  I never would've guessed that I could have laundry detergent for $1.64 or shampoo and fabric softener for FREE!  I love seeing the cashiers double check that they've rang me up correctly!  :)  WOOT!
• Have a great remainder of the week all!

Cilla

Saturday Update

It's been so nice to have the windows open at our house!  I woke up at some point last night freezing, but Charlie had taken the covers... HA!  This happens a lot with us :). 

I'm still missing Dolly.  I know I will.  There have been so many times this week that I watched where I stepped because I expected her to be there or I actually talked to her a few times.  I was late for school Tuesday because as I was putting on my jacket, I saw her picture on the shelf and had a cry.  My students were so sweet on Tuesday.  One of them said, "Mrs. Leonard don't worry too much, you'll see her again one day.  She's waiting on you in Heaven."  I couldn't hold it together.  I hugged him and just cried.  Yesterday we got a sympathy card from the vet with a handwritten note.  I cried again.  I am thankful to those who have comforted us this week.  It's getting better.

I'm making some home made potato soup for Charlie.  His wisdom tooth is hurting him so badly.  I wish the dentist could've seen him earlier, but he has an appointment first thing Monday morning.  Anywho, 10 lbs. of potatoes are peeled and cubed and boiling.  Since it's such a HUGE pot, we're going to take it to Nanna's and have supper with them and visit for a while.  I miss her, and I want to go visit her.  Nanna makes me feel better.  She's always been able to.  Nanna's are awesome like that.  Plus I want to show Nanna my car :)

I got some GREAT deals last night on my couponing adventure!  So excited to save some money!  This will help us out big time!

Only 21 days until I start my driving classes!  YES!

Tomorrow is Calvary's homecoming, and I'm so excited to see everyone.  I love CVBC, but Calvary is where I grew up and where I started my family.  P.S. A family IS 2 people.  Just saying.  I'm sick of people saying you aren't a family unless you have a child.  You know what... bite my butt fertile jerk.  Anywho, my father-in-law is preaching at the service, and I'm excited to sit on a pew with my family! 

I'm going to go jog now....  Burning off some steam.  It helps SO much!

Cilla